ideal double/group features

• sunset blvd/mulholland drive (/in a lonely place - v similar in theme/atmosphere but doesnt go as well bcs it doesnt have a street name as its title!! still tho)
• the misfits/the last picture show (really perfect actually)
• stranger than paradise/last days of disco (im not sure how but it works trust me)
• blue velvet/fire walk with me (duh though)

more 2 come

lmao @ my laura palmer comparison still but im just not interesting!!!!!!! i feel like everything i write or do has been done before and it just means nothing

the thought of anyone having concern for me whatsoever gets me so mad im so happy i have a blogspot now and i can say something like that, im a very angry and very self centered person but i dont want to bother anyone else with this fact

everything ive ever written is a lie i want to sleep for 100000 years and for everyone i know to be dead and buried i want to start over pure and new and unscathed and not wary i want to kill myself but ive already put too much effort into this world to abandon it ive been too selfish in this life to leave it for another but i still cant tell if the selfish part is wanting to stay in it in the first place
and writing it out like that i know that i do want to stay, but i dont know if i can

i hate everyone except for brown girls right now/always - not personally but on principle

my #1 daily reminder to myself and to others is to recognize the complex humanity of other people (but also fuck a rapist or any other -ist)