Based on Kyoko Okazaki's award-winning Helter Skelter manga, the film stars Erika Sawajiri (SHINOBI - Heart Under Blade, 1 Liter of Tears drama series) as Ririko, a model who underwent extensive plastic surgery to attain her beauty. The clinic who performed Ririko's surgeries goes under investigation for questionable business practices, and Ririko's body starts to deteriorate. As the model's prominence in the entertainment industry begins to falter, so does her sanity.

i want to see this so fricken bad and it took me like half an hour to find it again because it doesnt have a mubi page or a wiki???????

am i the worst if my kneejerk reaction to somebody trying to pour their heart out and get heavy about shit is "theres blogging for that" am i the worst if i think its selfish for other people to assume others want to hear about their shit/can deal with their shit/should be able to help them with their shit and then getting mad or offended when theyre told straight up that theyre not equipped for that?

i dont feel very safe on this blog isnt that stupid i just reverted a lot of my posts to drafts. its weird bcs i know not a lot of people are reading this but i know a few are and im trying really hard not to sound like an idiot but its difficult since i actually am and all i can write about is wanting to kill myself when i made this blog to post screencaps and shit in the first place ugh

im very stupid its silly loves it

im in a good mood tonight i only have two thoughts and thats HOW EMBARRASSING IS MY SERIOUS WRITING and LETS MOVE TO DENMARK!!!

i wont kill myself soon but in time i feel very resigned by fate im going through a particularly stupid phase right now where i believe in shit like that but i do. i dont think a belief in fate necessarily cancels out a belief in self determination however. i can navigate within the framework of fate but there are still certain lines that lay out a path for me. what people dont understand is fate isnt "everything that happens is meant to be", its not an agenda its a loose set of guidelines and whether you like it or not these guidelines are at least somewhat adhered to.

i love myself so much so very much i just dont feel i can ever fully actualize that in anybody else i dont know if that makes sense and i dont really care here lets cry together