tips on radiance

walking thru a university a week ago i almost had a breakdown like this in front of everyone and i havent left the house since (v cliche) but this is exactly how i feel or what im verging on i went to a dinner for my grandmas birthday and i kept getting impulses where i wanted to scream im beginning to lose control over myself im terrified that something is coming all the time and sometimes i can feel it almost overtaking me only to push it back not yet but internally this is best realization of a mental break ever put on film this is exactly how it feels its been over a month or two now ive been depressed since i was in middle school but now im just crazy im 100% nuts i scheduled an appointment with a new psychiatrist today