Friday, January 25, 2013

A radical meditation on man’s (or, more precisely, men’s) obsession with illusion,Vertigo reflects back on itself as cinema, and as a sadly ironic view of romantic love in the fifties. James Stewart was never less “romantic” than in this film; his urgency is frightening and compelling. Kim Novak knowingly portrays the two faces of woman, icon and victim (with a beautiful turn on the movie standard—she’s a smart blonde, a dumb and manipulated brunette). Formally, and in its deeply felt expression of the ultimate love triangle—man, woman, and death—this is Hitchcock’s most poetic film. As Marilyn Fabe wrote, “The hero’s simultaneous desire and dread are given brilliant and haunting visual expression through the ambivalent camera movements—especially the combination of forward zooms and reverse tracking shots.”
truuuuuuuuuu (p sure the author means “two faces of woman” in reference to cinematic portrayal not like as actual human beings)
ive always seen vertigo like this and this is why im a fan, even tho its questionable whether or not this is the point seeing as hitchock was a freak misogynist but :/ i want 2 believe

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

maybe id go hard for the white D if it was early 1990s london but its NOT

facebook gets me more than any man ever will

Monday, December 10, 2012

im so alienated from everything i dont belong anywhere and those who try to comfort me are part of the problem i just dont have the courage to say anything about it and any time i try to express myself i just come across as melodramatic i wish i was without self awareness entirely and i could act how people wanted me to and be what people want me to and follow through with things and get along easily with others but everything i do is performance everything is artificial and for most everyone thats the case but i can feel it so deeply, nothing i do is genuine and nothing i feel is either and for all the acting i do i cant put on the smallest facade of tolerance in order to just get along with others but why should i tolerate ppl who i can tell have no tolerance for anyone else? why do i have to be the understanding one all the time when time and time again my fears with people are justified. everyone has a type and within a week of knowing them i can pin it and its very few who can overcome that early of judgment, i set myself up for failure in order to avoid it. i need to be in control so that if and when something fails, it will be on my own terms.