tips on radiance

im going crazy again its strange how you can feel it coming on and also terrifying like youre holding it back but it just keeps pulsing more and more like a pimple its gonna burst my life is pus i think i need to write more bcs ive been trying to keep it simple on here but im not a simple person i also dont like writing too much on here bcs it can become indulgent and self-aggrandizing but i dont have a happy medium what i need to do right now is express myself and sort out my thoughts the only problem is im out of thoughts to sort im overflowing with words and impulses that go nowhere this is madness this is how it operates i'm full w/o a catalyst and when i snap my whole world is going w/ it